I CAN’T FUCKING BELIEVE THIS…I just got cancer? Are you serious? I feel like I just got PUNK’D, but I didn’t… The official bomb was dropped today. I have been going to my doctor for the last 3 years and telling my doctor I am in pain and do not feel well. Over the past 3 years, my arms have been gradually getting more and more painful. First, it became harder and harder to drive as I could hardly turn the wheel due to pain in my shoulders and arms. I was diagnosed with Polymyelits and put on Prednisone, which never seemed to help much. It kept getting progressingly worse and I could not drive anymore. I love driving and I have been so depressed not being able to drive. It makes me feel like I am in prison as I am usually alone in the day. I would walk, but over the last 3 years I have gotten to the point where I am not stable walking. I have fallen a few times and about a year in a half ago fell out of bed and broke my shoulder. I thought I had cancer in my arms then, but was told no cancer was seen on X-rays. I have been having recurrent bladder infections as well which started after a hernia mesh repair a little over 3 years ago. I mean this is bullshit. Isn’t this supposed to be the Golden years? I feel like doctors just try to appease you and give you drugs and say you are fine. I even had an abdominal Cat Scan 2 years ago and was told it was fine. Last year I had complete blood analysis which was fine. I don’t know, I am just so upset. So, every time I go to the doctor he kept saying you just have body inflammation from that. Do you know that eventually I could not put on a bra and in the last year I have barely been able to lift my arms from the extreme pain. My muscles a have dropped in my arms and I feel like I have aged 20 years in the last 3 years. Now I find out I just got cancer? Come on, give me a break in life! So here I am with my story which I want to share with you. I know I am not alone. I think as we age doctors tend to blow things off as the aging process and aren’t as thorough as they should be. Also our ever-changing health care system and insurances want to cut costs and I have been told the new trend is to do less testing to save money. We have to be our own advocate to survive.
Well, I got sick and tired of taking the Prednisone and stopped it around Thanksgiving as it was making me unbearable to be around my family and it didn’t do much to make me feel better anyway. I realize now that if it wasn’t for stopping it, I may have never realized how sick I was. So, here I am today, and it was confirmed that I just got cancer. What sucks is I do not know if I just got cancer as basically I was just informed and I do not know how long I have had it.
Hi, I am Giovanna and I have decided that I can help myself and others by sharing my story. Therefore, I am writing this blog which is my daily journal which I intend to make into a book. I feel my journey will be a resource for others as well as an outlet for myself. I have been going through it and freaking out for the last 2 weeks waiting for a biopsy following a visit to the Emergency Room. Yes, the ER! At my last doctor visit I told my doctor that i had frequent urination and pain in my right side. He just blew it off and said I probably pulled a muscle. He told me I had plenty of blood work and I was fine. That was line of crap! So here I am 3 months later now waiting for my first oncologist appointment. I am so scared that I want to cry and scream at the same time. I am fortunate to have my children to help support me, but they have to work and we are going to have a lot to deal with.
Let me tell you how I got here today and I just got cancer diagnosed. 2 weeks ago I had so much abdominal pain that my children took me to the ER. In the morning it was my daughter that took me. She had to get them on the right track and make them realize I really needed some attention. As many of you may know they tend to leave you for long periods of time. I had this blood pressure cuff on my arm that was causing severe pain and they would not take it off. My daughter went out to the desk and told them if they did not take it off, she would. They finally took it off. I was already in enough pain and couldn’t handle it. After an exam and much discussion, the ER doctor finally had me get a Cat Scan of my torso. After 4 hours of misery he says I have abdominal nodules. He said to us there were no visible masses or obstructions. He said they could be inflammation or a possibility of cancer or other things. I had a probable bladder infection and was put on antibiotics and given anti-nausea medication. I go home and in the middle of the night the pain starts again and I am back in the ER. My son thought I was having an appendix that was rupturing. We still had to wait about half an hour, and my son was livid. I finally got in the ER treatment area and low and behold it is the same doctor who says he’s not surprised I have pain. This time he is arrogant and smug. This time says well, it might be cancer, but you have to see your doctor and have a biopsy to see what it is. My son talks with him and of course the doctor told him the same thing of abdominal nodules that could be many things. He finally decides to give Vicodin. I got so much, I cough barely walk. My children took me home and in a couple of days I did not need the pain medication, but felt so weak that I really didn’t know what to think. My children were telling me I was pale and yellow. I looked in the mirror and I looked as awful as I felt.
Well, my son started making me healthy meals, anti-oxidant smoothies and giving me vitamins. My daughter was doing research and the 2 of them were on it right away to find holistic and Chinese medicine to help me. I had my ER follow-up with my primary 2 days after the ER. My children go with me and my doctor tells us it is probably not cancer, but diverticulitis and that the nodules are inflammation. Of course, he could not be sure until a biopsy was performed and we would get those results.
During the week I continued on vitamins and minerals and a healthy diet and did start to feel a bit better. I had my biopsy last Friday. They did needle aspirations on 6 nodules and told me that they were mostly fluid in nature. That was great, but it did not mean anything. I was also anemic and the hospital talked about giving me blood, but of course they didn’t. I got through that day and was supposed to get results in a few days.
On Monday there should have been a preliminary report, but of course my primary had nothing. By Tuesday I felt really weak again and wanted to see if they would give me blood, so my son took me to the doctor as my daughter had to go to work. She works for physicians so she spoke with one of them and told them what was going on. He got on in right away and the pathologist called him and gave him the preliminary diagnosis and he called my primary when my son and I were there. At that time it was more likely that I may have cancer, but my primary still said it may not be. The physician my daughter works with got the ball rolling for an oncologist and it took until today to get the final reading and yes, I just got cancer diagnosed as peritoneal cancer with a possible primary of breast, ovarian or endometrial cancer. So now, I have to go the the oncologist in 5 days to get the official reading, prognosis and treatment. It’s going to be a long few days, but my children and I have decided to keep each other positive and strong. We are all changing our eating habits and taking vitamins and minerals to be well and fight cancer.
I want to share what I am taking. For now, I am taking 2 iron a day for my anemia and eating iron rich foods such as oatmeal, raisins, liver, spinach, kale and more. Some other things I am taking are Coral Calcium, Chlor Oxygen,Vitamin C, Cranberry, Vitamin E, vitamin A, Flax seed, Magnesium, Potassium, and more. I am drinking carrot juice, mango juice and super anti-oxidant drinks. Tonight, I ate broccoli, shiitake mushrooms, button mushrooms and some lean chicken breast, no skin with a glass of carrot juice. Shitake mushrooms are very good for you. You can buy them fresh or dried and add them to your food. The Flax seed can be in a powder that you sprinkle over your food. I must tell you that this is not how I was eating. You know how we know we should eat healthy but don’t. I suggest start eating healthy today and do not wait to say coulda shoulda or woulda. Start now don’t wait until it is too late.
It’s been a really long day. I have had a constant headache and a horrible cough which is making me feel like shit. I think I got it from my daughter who got it from her brother who got it from their friend. Basically, it just sucks all the way around as I have just laid in bed all day. To make it worse it was 100 degrees and we have no air-conditioner. It has been hell and I am so hot and sweaty. All day my son had me drink juices and water even when I did not want to. I know everyone is worried about me.
Anyway, I am beat and need to go to bed.
Goodnight… until tomorrow…