(I just got cancer) Chemotherapy and thankfulness
I first want to apologize for slacking on my blog. After my last session of chemotherapy I was just exhausted and needed a break. I was then blessed with company for Thanksgiving. Chemotherapy and thankfulness are hard to comprehend, but it depends how you look at it. There is just so much in life to be thankful for that I will never be able to include them all. I am so grateful to be alive each and every day. I believe in God and know that without my faith I do not know if I could make it. My family is so loving and takes such good care of me. I am so blessed to have children and am so grateful. I am so fortunate to have them as so many people are alone. I am grateful for life, my home, my friends, pets, having food to eat a TV to watch and on and on. I just want to remind everyone not just those with cancer but everyone that we must always remember that each day is a gift. No matter what you do or do not believe, life is a gift from the day we are born.
The world so full of tragedy, stress, poverty, criminal acts and more that in the scope of it all when you just stop and think of it all, everyone has some type of problem in life. It goes back to the old saying that “it can always be worse”. If we all thought of that on a bad day, we would be grateful and thankful around the clock. It is just so easy to get caught up in our own issues. Having cancer is so real and scary. I get frustrated as I feel sick often and weak, then I freak out that we have truly not been able to keep up with our mortgage, let alone our bills. Then, I remember I could have no home to try to save, no car, no family and etc. My eyes are open. In fact I am lucky to see for real and walk and talk. Not that they were not before, but I just have days that it is hard to step out of my “box of problems”. I am working hard on myself to “keep my eyes open”, as many are in pain, poverty, alone, have cancer, can’t walk, no home and more. I am so thankful and grateful to be here, working hard to keep alive.
Life is a journey. It is full of ups and downs. As we walk the walk and live each day, there will be many awful and stressful times, but every once in a while something wonderful will happen and things will be calm for a bit. I will force myself to live for many more of those special moments. No matter how bad today is, tomorrow may be the best day of our life.
God Bless Everyone and May your Holidays be blessed,
I got two pints of blood today. I had to go to an infusion center this time. It was a small extension of the hospital I went to last time, but in another town. It was very uncomfortable today as they have recliners that were hard and my body is very sore today. I wonder if I am going to need blood after each round of chemotherapy. We will see. I feel a bit less short of breath tonight. I am still exhausted though. “I am going to feel well and beat cancer, I am going to feel well and beat cancer, I am going to feel well and beat cancer.”
My son was a big help today and stayed with me at the infusion center. Tonight, he has been doing chores at home for me. My daughter made me kale, spinach, mushroom, tomatillo and garlic veggies with mashed potatoes. These are good to fight cancer and get iron. I am dehydrated feeling tonight and have been drinking green tea and now water. I also drank my Odwalla super green.
I am going to get some rest and hope to have more energy tomorrow. Wishing health to all,
I have had a rough week fighting cancer and my treatment of chemotherapy. I was not feeling well this week and started getting short of breath and weak. Last week I had been told my CA125 had dropped in half and that meant that the chemotherapy was working. Well, it turns out the chemo is also hard for my body and this week my hemoglobin, red blood cells, hematocrit and white blood cells dropped very low again. Now I am taking more medication for my white blood cells to increase. I also have to get blood again tomorrow. I knew I was feeling more fatigued, but I thought is was the heat which has been extreme. Looks like it was more than that. One of the other things that I notice when my blood levels drop is I am more short of breath, which is the anemia. I also started getting a bit of a cough, which my be the low white blood cells.
I have also been getting twinges that feel like electrical shocks in my body which my oncologist said is the Taxol which is one of my chemotherapy drugs. Taxol is also the chemotherapy drug that makes your hair fall out.
I still continue to take all my herbal supplements such as Protandim which I got as livelifehealer.com, turmeric, coral calcium, all the vitamins you can think of as well as Odwalla juices. I really believe they help me have more energy. I have still been able to eat pretty well this week and have not had much nausea. I do get a headache every time I have chemotherapy though and I take Tylenol for that. Luckily my abdominal pain is still under control.
I was not able to blog for a few days as my internet was down. Happily I am up and running again.
My daughter surprised me this week by taking me to get a wig and some cute comfortable material hats for my birthday. That was just the pick me up I needed. I am enjoying my hats and am going to use my wig for special outings.
Yesterday I had my fifth dose of chemotherapy and got good news! My CA125 cancer markers started at 398 and yesterday they were down to 137! The nurse practitioner said the goal is to get under 30. My Oncologist said that was excellent and it is a good indicator that my body is responding to treatment. I am so happy! It gave me so much encouragement, that I went out a bought a cute little hat. I got a lightweight black summer hat that flips up in front. It made me feel cute. My daughter had to drop some of her work off and do a few errands and I made it through. I was very tired last night though, hence not blogging last night.
Today has been good. My occupational therapist came over and checked on me. All my vitals were good. She has me on a regime of exercises to get strength back in my arms, and I worked on those with her. I have a very hard time lifting my arms up or doing things like put on clothes over my head or put dishes away. Most of my exercise is for getting me able to function better with my activities of daily living. She even added more today.
So far, no nausea today, just tired. It is not as hot in my house today and that helps. Still worried about how we will pay our mortgage, but my daughter said to remember health is most important and we can only do the best we can. She feels so bad about not having enough money to go around. I know it is what it is. We will get through all of this as I know we are strong. “I will beat cancer and keep my home, I will beat cancer and keep my home, I will beat cancer and keep my home”!
My best to all,
I have been pretty lucky so far this time with my double chemotherapy dose. I have had a slight headache, but no pain at this time. I know that one of the main reasons is I get an IV of steroids prior to each dose which usually makes me feel pretty good for about 48 hours.
I have been very good about drinking a lot of juice and water today as my nurse told me to drink ten to twelve glasses of non-caffeinated beverages a day. I was given an Iron shot yesterday and was concerned about getting constipated. I am doing good in that department as well today.
I continue to tell myself, ” my cancer will to away, my cancer will go away, my cancer will go away”. My hair is still thinning a lot every time I brush or comb it. Just taking each thing one day at a time.
We had a very nice social worker here who spoke with my daughter about things to help financially. Family members can be paid to care for spouses and parents depending on if you “qualify” for certain “in home care programs”. These vary depending on where you live in the United States. She is going to get us some information.
I enjoyed another day of the Olympics.
Keep smiling as much as you can,
I was actually hungry and able to eat today. I will be having my second dose of my double chemotherapy medication on thursday. I was told that just when I felt good the “double whammy” would come next. That’s all goo though as I am so grateful to feel more “normal” today. I decided to tell my daughter we should get some dinner out and take a ride. So, that is exactly what we did tonight. In fact, I felt so good we swam first and then watched Michael Phelps get his 19th metal and then we went out to eat. We ate at a local pizza restaurant which was fun and I was craving their specialty salad and wrapped pizza dogs. I was able to eat and so far no nausea. So exciting for a change.
I even spent the day by myself and managed well. I kept the house closed until this evening so it would not be so hot. Watching all the swimming events with the Olympics is so thrilling to me. It has encouraged me to get up and moving. Speaking of moving, I am going to have a physical therapist next week to help me with my arthritis.
I am very optimistic with my cancer. My daughter told me the doctor she works for told her that many times my type of cancer is quick to respond to chemotherapy. “I plan on getting rid of my cancer…I am going to get rid of my cancer, I am going to get rid of my cancer”.
My daughter got my turmeric today. I realized I had spelled it incorrectly-sorry about that. It really helps with inflammation. Remember to get the one that is 95% potency. My headache also left today and that was a great relief. I still take iron everyday and am supposed to start extra shots to boost my iron levels this week. I know I will have more energy if I can get my hemoglobin in the normal range. If you feel weak, short of breath,fatigued and are pale, these are signs of anemia.
I got a lovely bouquet of yellow and white lilies, some smaller looking lilies that are orange, baby’s breath with green filler from a young lady who is like a daughter to me…just beautiful and uplifting!
On that note, Have a Blessed Day and enjoy all life can offer,
I have rested most of the day today as I have been worn out since my hospital stay. I have had so many bowel movements today, I can’t believe it. It is better than being constipated. I just want my blood levels to improve and get more energy and get rid of my cancer. “I am going to get rid of my cancer, I am going to get rid of my cancer, I am going to get rid of my cancer”.
I was able to eat well today and did not drink as much super green that I usually do, but I have been drinking a lot of water. I also had Lasix yesterday after each pint of blood and I think that might be why I am still worn out.
I have been watching the Olympics today. They are amazing to watch. It must be an event of a lifetime to watch them in person.
I am keeping it short tonight. My best to everyone.