I waited all day to get my repeated biopsy stain results only to find out that they are not in. Therefore, no Chemotherapy this week. I really want the final biopsy results to be finalized. When the biopsy result are concluded, my Oncologist will know for sure what chemotherapy I need. He wants to be 100% sure it is Peritoneal cancer as a primary. I pray that is it as that is bad enough. I have to tell you that the waiting is very stressful and it is hard for me to keep my head on straight. I am doing my best to keep positive.
I did go swimming and sit in the sun this afternoon. I felt pretty good then, but this evening had a run of shortness of breath. I know my hemoglobin has been low and anemia makes you short of breath. I did take my iron today and all my routine of vitamins and minerals. I ate a salad with spinach, avocado, tomato and shrimp today to get some of my cancer fighting foods. I also started taking Chor oxygen again. I had run out. I like the Chlor oxygen as it helps clean the body.
Well, everything happens for a reason in life and I was just not suppose to start chemo today. I really do not get these golden years, but every day we are alive is golden so maybe that is how to look at it.
Remember to “smell the roses” and enjoy all around you.
My son had me go for a walk today. I must say it was more difficult than I expected. We only walked 5 blocks, but it felt like 20. I know I am anemic and it is making me short of breath. I have to take iron daily to build up. I still have pain in my abdomen today. It is aggravated from my cough that I just can’t seem to shake. I really want to feel better and I am frustrated. I feel very full when I eat and I have to force myself to eat. I wish I could get my last results so I can start Chemotherapy and get on the road to recovery. I know I am eating right and taking vitamins and minerals, but I will feel mentally better when I start treatment.
My son made me Mediterranean Sea Bass for dinner with endive and boiled beets. It was very good and all good to beat cancer. The Sea Bass was flaky and you do have to chew it a bit, but it tasted similar to cod. I had endive with only lemon, olive oil, salt and pepper. It was not as bitter as I expected, but I still need to re-acquire a taste for it. I love beets, especially fresh boiled as they are so sweet. I have been drinking Trop 50 blood orange juice and it is delicious. It is a challenge eating healthy, but I am working at it each day.
I have had many nice people I do not even know, who are praying for me and I so appreciate it. I pray everyday. For me this is important. No one ever said life would be easy, but I would like a little bit of “easy”. Looking forward to a good day tomorrow for all. Eat your endive, sea bass and beets.
I am very happy that I finally broke my constipation of the last few days. The only thing is I have had bad pain across my abdomen and it has been freaking me out. I keep thinking, SHIT! I HAVE CANCER! I keep telling my self ” I am going to be fine, I am going to be fine, I am going to be fine”. I can’t keep my brain right today….lets say it again…Cancer go away, Cancer go away, Cancer go away. I just have to keep telling myself. Its just been that kind a day.
My daughter made me vegetable chicken soup before she went to work this AM and my son made me greens. They were very good and helped my bathroom troubles. I really did not do much except rest today as I have had too much pain, My jaw is also still bothering me from having my tooth pulled. I have been drinking all my juices and each day I drink a glass of Green Apple Odwalla, Carrot Juice by Odwalla and Mango by Odwalla. These and the greens are very good. I also drank alot of good earth tea today and of course, water. I never used to drink very much water, so this is all new for me. I realize if I do not hydrate enough, I feel worse. So be sure to drink alot of fluids, juices and veggies. Remember that shitake mushrooms, asparagus, onions, beets and artichoke are excellent if you have cancer.
Tomorrow I need to get walking as my Oncologist wants me to get strong for chemotherapy. He said is is important to keep active as much as possible….Its that Mind, Body, Spirit with diet and exercise. I am tossing in holistic medicine and of course the Chemotherapy. It seems like such a long road. I know I can do this. I will succeed and survive. I am going to have to push myself to get strong. I am going to get strong, I am going to have to push myself to get strong.
Okay, today my thoughts are no matter what keep on pushing yourself.
I am having a lot of jaw pain today and my jaw is swollen and bruised. It was already difficult to eat and now it is worse. Actually, it is worse than yesterday as my mouth “woke up”. My children have been doting over me all day with ice packs, juices and getting me to eat. For most of the day, it was yogurt and soft fruit with protein drinks. Later in the day my son made me a soft turkey sandwich with BBQ sauce which was really good. Tonight they made me eat shitake mushrooms, spinach, red onion and scrambled eggs with some tomato. It was very good and filling. Of course I am constipated again and just finished some prune juice. I even had OJ earlier with vitamin C packs and Magnesium powder, but that was not all. I even had Miralax in Green Kiwi juice. I expect a revolution soon. So for anyone who needs tips, these are mine for constipation.
I had a bit of a freak out this afternoon and worked on my will. I plan to be fine and go into remission, but know I also need a will. I have to keep my head on straight as. ” I know, this cancer is leaving my body, this cancer is leaving my body, this cancer is leaving my body”. Yes I am going to be fine and live a much longer life. I am very wiped out today, so I am keeping today short. Keep laughing and live each day to the fullest.
It’s been a week now that I have known that I have cancer. I have been eating healthier and taking a lot of vitamins and minerals and I actually feel better. My family and I are all working together to keep our minds in the right place and practice and believe in a positive outlook about everything in life. Besides, “My cancer is going away, My Cancer is going away, My cancer is going away”.
I had to get up at 6 A.M., which has never been a good time for me, but I did it. My daughter took me to get my tooth pulled and we drove about an hour away for the appointment. I was so nervous that it would be very painful. Much to my surprise, it was not as bad as I had anticipated. The Oral Surgeon and his staff were very nice which always makes any doctor visit more pleasant. He explained what he was going to do and I had Novocain shots in my gum and was awake. The actual pulling procedure was about ten minutes, and then he had to suture my gum. I had to keep gauze in my mouth for an hour and then ice it on and off during the day. Once I was done, my daughter had me rest for about 15 minutes in the car. We had errands and I decided I was up to walking around. We stopped at a few places and my daughter even bought me a pair of shoes, as she wanted me to have something safe to walk in.
Once we got home, I started icing my jaw and I had to start antibiotics. I was told soft food today, and I had my milk shake, smoothies, and lots of water, my juices and fresh fruit. Overall a good day. In fact, this afternoon, a gentleman that would drive me to Bingo sometimes came over to see if I was doing okay. We had a nice visit. It is very nice when you realize people care more than you expect. I must say that when the “chips are down”, your true friends appear.
Stay strong, smile as much as you can and live each day to the fullest.