I really feel like I am being tested every day. I am so grateful for another day and blessed to be able to enjoy it, but this nausea is a bitch! The nausea always gets me in the afternoon and evening and it makes it very difficult to eat. It’s frustrating as I have not even started chemo yet. I want to thank a reader for the prayers. I so appreciate it. My pain was not as bad today. Its up and down. “I will get through this, I will get through this, I will get through this”.
I was ready to spend the day in bed, but my daughter insisted I eat and go outside. I was rather difficult on the eating part as I was worried about my buddy nausea. She got me to drink a milkshake with pineapple and flax-seed. She also had me take all kinds of vitamins and minerals that she and my son have given me. My son is painting my room for me and the paint smell bothered me so my daughter got me to go swimming again. We are fortunate enough to have a dough-boy above ground pool. It took a lot of convincing, but I finally went swimming and did water exercise. It is very painful to exercise, but I know I need to do my best to get stronger before chemotherapy. Water exercise feels the best as it is easier on me. It is also refreshing to be outside and not staring at walls all day. I am not a good reader, but I do enjoy watching TV.
My pets are so loyal and worried about me. They go from room to room with me. My dog and twin kitties stay with me all the time. They are so precious. I love my little ones.
I should be hearing my final results this week. It has been making me so freaked out waiting, that I get depressed if I dwell on it. I am doing my best to not over think anything. Okay, “I am going to have good news, I am going to have goo news, I am going to have good news”. Speaking of good news, my son had me make a vision board of photos. I was reluctant at first, but while he painted, my daughter and I each created one. It did feel therapeutic and get me looking through magazines. It made me look at things and know I need to get better so we can get things we need like a washer and dryer, refrigerator, a bed for me (I have had the same bed for 50 years) and things like a recliner. Yes, we need many things, but like most of the world we are lucky if we can pay the mortgage on time. If you have your health, you have everything and the rest is cake and ice cream. I plan to have my health back and one day more cake and ice cream.
Sweat Dreams and Big Smiles,
- Day One; I Just Got Cancer Friday June 15th 2012 (ijustgotcancer.wordpress.com)
- Beyond Saltines: The Woman Doctor’s Guide to Morning Sickness (womanmdsguide.com)
- Tomorrow will be better (livinglifewithraandfms.wordpress.com)
- Day 15- Having A Rough Day With Nausea And Depression (ijustgotcancer.wordpress.com)